kidney update 3.0

Posted at 6:59pm | 191 comments

my kidney doesn’t seem to be getting any better. and im a little scared now :\

im not much for prayer, but if you are, i could really use it. and some good wishes.

thankyou.

family approval.

Posted at 10:11pm | 308 comments

i took dave over to my parents today for lunch.. was expecting the worst, because he’s only met my parents and two older brothers once before, and it was really really awkward.  but now, he and my brother are becoming friends. they had a huge bonding moment over like a two hour span trying to figure out how to switch the top to our jeep.

it totally does creep me out a little. my brother doesn’t like anyone i date. ever.  he was just starting to be decent to my exhusband right before the hitting happened and i left him, so in my first relationship post-divorce, he was less than kind. i guess he was just worried about me getting hurt again, and i did.. but then i found dave. whatever it is i feel towards him. i don’t want it to stop. i’ve never loved, or been loved like this. my ex before dave taught me about what i deserve, and helped with a few of my self-esteem issues, and now i won’t accept anything less.

in kidney news, i think today and friday’s action was a little bit too much for me. i’m supposed to be resting, and now i feel like utter crap. the pain in my lower right back has gotten excruciating again, and i’m out of fuzzy happy pain pills. i have a doctors appointment in the morning so hopefully i can get some more out of her.

kristen’s big night out.

Posted at 10:23am | 341 comments

tonight dave and i have tickets to see the ballet. i’m stoked, because its my first outing in well over a week, and we are seeing the company i used to perform with  - the atlanta ballet. i love going to see them because its such a small company, so everyone is principal dancer calibre. you have to be. the workload there is immensely heavy, but its such a tight knit little family. i still love going back every now and then for company class. i’m nowhere near the talent i used to be, but when i’m dancing i just forget everything but the choreography.

i’ve been taking this quarter off from school while i handled a sticky financial situation, but now im not too sure i want to go back.. to the art institute anyways. i was thinking about transferring over to georgia state and majoring in education and french.

i don’t know what to do with my life yet. and i’m almost 25. eep.

i’ve been floating around unsure since i retired from ballet. i wish i could find something else that makes me feel that complete.

kidney update 2.0

Posted at 11:12am | 457 comments

i did wind up having to go back to the hospital, not too long after i wrote that last post. the pain in my back became excruciating, and i’m no doctor, but i figured that wasn’t a good sign and got my butt back to the emergency room asap.

lots more tests, lots more needles in my arm. they pumped some kind of painkiller in my IV and it was amazing. i was so loopy when i got sent home. like “omg sweetie the trees are so beautiful. i love you so much” to dave on the car ride home, loopy. i was told to increase my fluid intake, and get about a week of nothin but rest. im so down with that.

i’m feeling much better today, but still kinda meh at the same time. thank youuuuu , vicodin.

sweet!?

Posted at 12:14am | 332 comments

as if dave’s illness wasn’t quite enough…

wednesday, i thought i pulled something in my back, or that it was cramps, since there had been blood a few times when i went to the bathroom. thursday after our dinner date, i got violently sick, throwing up every 5 minutes, and then that was accompanied by a fever.. started off at 99 and shot up to 105 by saturday. my dad made the decision to take me to the hospital, and after a lot of tests, and being pumped full of tingly medicines, it was determined that i have an extremely extremely severe kidney infection. they sent me home with two different antibiotics& vicodin(yay) i’ve been resting all day, and feeling pretty weak. & if im still nauseous tomorrow im going to have to be hospitalized